금요일, 5월 20, 2005
Damn pissed off right now
I cun believe myself at times. Im actually darn pissed right now after watchin todae's dolphin bay. Its official, i cun stand tianbian anymore. Right from the start she fumbled her way into the lives of two guys who turned out to love her so much and yet the only thing she knows how to do is to hurt them. I know zeya might be fickle well accordin to my dear angie whose view i totally cun agree with. N i guess we will never come to the same conclusion abt this cos our thinking are totally different! I can never never agree in my life that u can give up someone who loves u so much and is for that matter, dying soon, n only wishes that u can be with her for the rest of her remaining days on this earth. Is that even too hard to ask of u? Is that? I cun understand why wld anyone feel that it is impossible. Arent u human too? or would i have mistaken you for sth other than that? Sorry angie im not scoldin u or anythin but i jus wants to sae wat i feel k. Better stop replyin u or else i think i will sound too harsh liao. So if u see this u noe why i din reply u lah hor.
Anyway i jus cun see why is tianbian doin stupid things. Everyone's tryin so hard to help her n yet i hardly see her doin anything concrete. First she refuses to sing at her own trial session. Den, she's late for her promotion n in e end it was called off. All because she cldnt control her own feelings. Ok fine i know its hard but din she sae herself tt all along she treated xiaogang as her idol only? if she din noe how to differentiate her own feelings it's fine by me. But pls watch ur actions. I admit im biased towards zeya n xiaogang but i cun help it. They certainly seem to love tianbian more den she loves either of them. N her face doesnt help any. So young n immature. Fine im doin a personal attack n i dun deny that. Zeya has his own responsibilities. He's the president of SEt n he certainly cun do anything to jeopardise his own company. Even if he may seem like a puppet, its out of filial piety n the fact that it is the grandpa who brought him up. N most imptly, cos of shanni. Its fair enuf if she wasnt gg to die. But she is. N yet she was willing to do anything for him so as to let him be happy. Zhuang wei da. i beg to differ. Shanni cun do without him, for christ's sake. But tianbian seems to be able to survive happily to me. Not tt she looked as if she was deeply in love with zeya in the first place.
Okok i cun let my emotions get the better of me! im gettin hot tempered recently. Mus be the stupid job n my stupid life. Sometimes i feel like i mus have split personality. ohno ohno i really think e job is gettin to me. Or issit wats happenin to me recently that made me flare up so easily? *shudders*
Lets just hope tomorrow is a better day.
-Being able to love somebody is the most wonderful feeling in this world.But do everybody really know how to? I doubt so.-
또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:58 PM